Slow and sticky paces
Every day a kind of resurrection
Struggling to keep my feet
Stumbling towards another shot at life
While waiting for the whirl of thoughts to settle
Like mud in a pond
If I can just sit still
Bathe in the quiet for a while
Refusing to engage in tasks
Surrendered to the weakness
Mind disengaged, waiting for some clarity
Heart open to the silence as in prayer –
Preferably with morning sunlight streaming on my face –
Things do eventually improve
My body seems to find new strength
The pain recedes – aided by the paracetamol –
And daytime order reasserts itself
I gradually know what to do
My diary of events
The grace to face the day
Which item on the list to tackle first
How then to live?
External forces pressing in
Demands are made by everyone from children to the unknown caller
What are you selling? What am I buying?
And (most importantly) where am I investing?
Without some clear choices we’ll all drown
The quicksand drags its victims inexorably down
And closes overhead
.
This world’s affairs – from facebook to the global news –
Conspire to shut down any inner life
Integrity is compromised, sense of direction quickly lost
As smoke screens blur our vision sirens lead our feet astray
The muddle of noise from a tangle of voices
A cloud of witnesses who are not watching
Daily life would seem to be a battle then
And I am ill-equipped
If I’m not still, how can I make my best response?
Without the time to think, to feel my way,
How can I know my mind, be true to who I am?
I simply imitate the crowd, swept forward by a mob,
Knee-jerk reactions to a million external stimulii
It seems it’s good I can’t keep up
My body will not let me run into the day
Perhaps there’s something to be said for getting older, weaker, wiser
If it turns out actually less is more
March 27, 2013 at 10:14 am
Reblogged this on Longing to escape… and commented:
Morning story. Poetry helps